![]() ![]() “Depression, pain, and fear are gifts that say, ‘Sweetheart, take a look at what you’re thinking right now. “I have never experienced a stressful feeling that wasn’t caused by attaching to an untrue thought,” writes Katie. I try to trust them because I know I can’t trust my own brain. I have a journal filled with the reasonable logic of my friends, and sometimes (not always) accessing their truth calms me down as if I’m talking to them again. When I'm on the phone with them, I write down everything they say like a newspaper reporter, because I will need that information handy for when the thoughts come - and I can’t afford to bother them again. They remind me of why I made certain decisions, why they were the right ones, and why that decision has absolutely nothing to do with the panic that is raging through my body. I get hooked on one thought and use it to beat myself to the ground until I feel absolutely worthless. They know it’s what I do when I get depressed. Fortunately, I have a handful of friends who know the insanity of ruminations and have walked with me through this in the past. You need to rely on other brains to help you sort out the stuck thought and tease it apart until you arrive at the truth. You can’t rely on your logic or any of the content that's streaming through your neurons, because it's all inaccurate. You have to fully admit that - it's the first step of most 12-step programs. In the state of severe ruminations, your brain is toast. But since I’ve been imprisoned by this insanity as of late, I thought I’d share more of them with you that have helped me escape, if only for a few minutes, to a place of peace. In my post 9 Ways to Let Go of Stuck Thoughts, I offer some tools to deal with obsessions. More than any other symptom of my depression - more so even than unrestrained tears and bawling my eyes out in public - the stuck thoughts make me feel truly insane, scared to be living inside my body and mind. One seemingly benign thought - often a rumination about a decision I have made in the past, a regret of one form or another, or sometimes something that makes no sense at all - is packed with panic and plays over and over again in my mind, keeping me awake at night and besieging me with anxiety during the day. Sometimes they can outright debilitate me. ![]() “It can be just as frightening when you’re lost inside the mind’s chaos.” I can usually gauge the severity of my depression based on the intensity and frequency of my stuck thoughts. “When a child gets lost, he may feel sheer terror,” explains Byron Katie in her bestseller Loving What Is. They are the curse of depression - among the most excruciating symptoms, in my opinion. ![]()
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